This Is Summer

There's something about summer that's more than just no school. It makes me happy just by thinking about it.

Last summer never actually ended for me. School has only been a small break from the wonderful summer of 2010. Summer's lasted a long time in me and I don't think it's leaving before the next:)

On the Radio by Regina Spektor reminds me of summer. Mozzarella sticks and Walmart. When I pull all nighters, I can feel summer. I put on sunscreen and it reminds me of the little kids putting it on at EFK:) Rachel, Jason, and Lizzy remind me of summer and I miss them so very much!

When we hang out with Coleman, it's summer too. Explorer Shorts, Dinosaur Shorts, Highlighter Shorts. Barefoot. Sister Simons. Running around in huge thunder and lightning storms! Thinking my mom shot Brenna when it was really only lightning in the field by our house:) P90X! Barefoot. Saying 'Naked' a lot. Barefoot Barefoot. Getting in trouble. and some Barefoot.

Driving to Youth Conference with John sitting behind me, touching my hair and us all singing 'Where are we going? John Moyles house!' Spitting Root Beer on Tyler. 'I'm gonna give all my secrets away.' and so I did. 'I want this to last. I need you by my side.' Cedar Hills 8th ward and EFY. Window!! 'Like a drunk but not.' Kaleb and John playing with my hair as Dani and others dragged me to go see ForFakesBlair with her:) Never stopped singing.

'When a heart breaks no it don't break even' My Kidnapping Kit:) Seeing Lone Peak with no shoes and getting in trouble. The night before High School. Omy. I now can't even remember why I cried so many tears of fear:) Summer was 'officially' over. But for me... nope. It was too good to end and the Summer of 2011 will be even better:)

What!?! It's Saran Wrap instead of Sarana Wrap!? Wow, why didn't anyone tell me!?

To Window Or Not To Window?

Now that is the question. It is indeed.

This summer all the Man Friends of Cedar Hills 8th Ward would cry out "WhindoOow!!" and I was pretty frustrated for I must know everything there is to know about everyone I know, you see. So, they pretended like there was some big joke about it to make me mad and I found out that it meant nothing at all. It was merely a childish game that one of the Man Friends of Cedar Hills 8th Ward made up on the spot and everyone followed in on it and pretended it meant something.

Well, this is not the Window I speak of.

When Gilbert proposes to Anne, for the first time:) she refuses cuz she doesn't think she loves him and 'Gilbert's just a chum! He's certainly not my idea of a romantic suitor':)

"But everyone expects it. Anne, surely you must feel that way." Gilbert says after she's refused. "But it would be for all the wrong reasons, Gil." she says with tears running down her face. Gilbert looks like he's gonna cry too. (so pretty much I'm sittin' here on the edge of my seat crying:) At the end of the conversation she says she just wants to go on being good friends and she doesn't want anything to change. He has to leave to medical school and she goes and teaches a Girls College (gets proposed to twice while she's there:) and her and Gil meet up again. By then she's realized that Marilla was right. She once said to Marilla that Gilbert's 'hardly my idea of a romantic suitor.' and Marilla said to her,

"Anne, you have tricked something out of that imagination of yours that you call romance. Have you forgotten how he gave up the Avonlea school for y

ou so that you could stay here with me? He picked you up everyday in his carriage so that you could study your courses together. Don't toss it away for some ridiculous ideal that doesn't exist."

But it was too late. Gilbert had proposed to another girl and Anne is very sad and very very upset with her foolishness the first time cuz she's realized she couldn't love anyone else and she was so happy and comfortable around him. She was very sad and so she cried.

I must take baby steps till I'm full grown, full grown. said The Fergie.

Nobody's Normal

I love seeing Gil's face every time I come on my blog but I have to post sometime so I might as well post now.

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As I was changing my shirt for the 15th time in today I said to myself, "Self, why the fetch do none of these fetchin' shirts fit me and why do everyone else's shirts seem to fit perfectly fine?!" (I said this with anger in my voice for I was pretty pissed- Tyler said not to say that word. That is why I put it in parentheses cuz parentheses aren't 4reals). And myself said, "Because everyone else's clothes aren't from other people. Everyone else's clothes are bought from things called stores." and I said, "Uh, okay. Well, that's weird. Why can't everyone be normal like me?" And myself whispered eerily, "Nobody's normal." and myself left the room.

I pondered this for a moment and I came to the conclusion that no one is normal. They all just pretend to be that way. And I wondered and am still wondering why in the world some one would do that. Who would want to pretend to be something they're not? Then I realized I probably do that sometimes. (at this point I was freepin' out so myself came back in to make me chillax:) I pretend to be bad when I'm not. I pretend to be afraid. I pretend to like some things that I don't really like at all. I pretend I don't care but I really do, alot. I pretend to suck at everything when I could actually do stuff if only I would let myself. I pretend to be stupid when sometimes I can be smart. I pretend not to but really I do, alot alot alot. At this point I threw my unfitting shirts in the air and I said to myself, "Meh, nobody's normal. Why the heckternanie am I pretending to be?"

So, I grabbed my favorite Llama Sweater and my back pack from Peru and I stumbled out my bedroom door and ate the candy bar Brenna gave me for Christmas. I drank some more milk from the jug Haley gave me for Christmas and muttered "My glass is empty... that suckssss" to myself cuz I'm not pretending anymore.

P.S. I thought of ties all as I wrote this and a smell just came over me that I really really like kind of alot, sometimes... well, all the time and hopefully not forever.